I need your advice. As you know, I've been seeing my pump for almost 10 months now, and for the most part things have been going well. We've become close. Our relationship has been stable and predictable, but if I'm being honest, I'm starting to have doubts.
It's not that I want to see other pumps, trust me, one pump is ENOUGH! But when I close my eyes and picture my future, I don't see my pump in it.
Little things that once didn't bother me, are starting to drive me crazy. For starters, she is SO needy! She needs my attention every three hours at work, and there are so many other things I'd rather do with that time. And while I knew before we got together that she came with baggage, like bottles, flanges, and tubes, I didn't quite realize the extent of clean up and time they all would require of me. Our relationship often feels like a full time job.
And let's not forget the anxiety she brings me. I know I expect a lot of her, but when she doesn't produce what I need, I get stressed.
There are so many days lately when I just want to give up on the relationship, but then I reflect on what she has made possible for my daughter... and I wonder, am I being selfish? Should I give it a few more months?
Oh diary, what do I do?
Is it time to dump the pump?